and i'm having difficulties to get back to sleep. and in a few hours' time, polytechnic-going students are back to school while i'm working. and shit,i hate to have this feeling of failure in life.it's been some time since i pen my feelings in this little space. am still trying to find a solution to upload my pictures and such. hurhurhur and oh anyways, something very random. but i was traveling alone from home to esplanade to boon lay and back to home earlier just now. cause apparently,my plan to surprise the boy at work got backfired. and he went back home and slept through. and some time after i reached back home,this boy was at my void deck. -.-and last few days,i got to find out some things that i shouldn't be even mentioning. but it hit on me that i've overlooked on certain things. i thought they are the better ones, but they proved to be the rotten ones. i hate this feeling of being used in a certain way. please god,show me the light. i may not be good with feelings but i hope it's gonna be something strong with you. it's been some time since i broke some rules of my own. it sure feels different with you but i can't say much for now. but i just wish i could keep you for long.
this is random. but this 'cari jodoh' song really got me hooked. blame my parents for introducing it to me&brothers. :))
anyways,my dark circles are getting worse. been lacking of sleep recently. but in any case,i've been having quality time with people close to my heart. from hard rock to midnight movies to east coast park to bonding moments. and thursday night was really random but i enjoyed it while it lasted. and at last,me&bacins got it. though it doesn't make me feel how i should be feeling, i'm still loving it. :DDD
just kinda woke up. initially,wanted to go tanning. but was on the bed when i hear the heavy rain outside. hurhurhur oh anyways, to all malay muslims, selamat hari raya to you guys horrr ! :) my first two days of raya was ok-ok bahs. there was definitely tension around the house but i guess everyone seems to just ignore it. somehow,i miss the old us. like always having family gatherings,chalets&such. what to do.. things change, people change too. on a random note, i kept smiling thinking what had happened yester-night. the boy was texting me while i was at work saying he's staying at home lahh, sleep lahh, what lahh.
but while i was in the train,on my way back home, got a call from him. sounding rather frantic, he said he was at my workplace. cause initially,this boy wanted to surprise me. feeling-feeling mahh. but heh,plan got backfired horrr. cause i ended work early bahs. so very the cute lohh. :)) and so,we went to watch kumar. wuhhlalala ! those transvestites dancing were really smoking hot lohh ! kalah wanita asli like that lohh ! and hands down,kumar is freaking hilarious ! freaking freaking hilarious lohh ! the lap dancing part was the killer sia. sexayyy ! :DDD
i shall do a proper update pretty soon. that's if i'm not too lazy bahs. &&& my freaking laptop's space storage is getting smaller by the minute. thanks to all my pictures. hurhurhur anyways,take care y'all ! &&& selamat hari raya again. :DDDDD
just woke up from my sleep.
it's been some time since i pen my feelings in this little space.
and oh anyways,
cause apparently,my plan to surprise the boy at work got backfired.
and last few days,i got to find out some things that i shouldn't be even mentioning.
i may not be good with feelings
oh anyways,
my first two days of raya was ok-ok bahs.
on a random note,
and so,we went to watch kumar.
called the bacins at 11pm.
till then ;